Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Outpouring of Frustrations

Blogging blogging blogging....I'm struggling this week. I've been aiming to blog everyday lately but this week it's just been a bit too much for me to keep up with it all. Since the internet died in our house it's been a bit of an effort to make it into town and find a wireless signal. Such an inconvenience. :( Boo. 

Only one more month of this and then we'll be moving to the land of the free and my parents house will definitely have internet (hopefully I'm not jinxing myself here). I can't wait to settle in to the Seattle area and start looking into starting up a more permanent studio and having lots more people around to work with. 

It's been so frustrating this week. I've scheduled 4 or 5 photo shoots this week and every single model canceled on me last minute with a severe 'sickness.' I don't mean to lack compassion. If they are genuinely sick then I hope they feel better and I understand. I just don't want to be lied to. 

What I'm really, actually, disappointed about is that the shoot is canceled. I get so excited about shoots — I wake up early, exercise, shower, even put on make-up and prepare my studio. And then I get that horrible text or email that says...."I'm so sorry but I'm really not feeling well." It's just leaves me hangin'. Today it was quite bad actually. 

I was so disappointed today I didn't know what to do with myself. I didn't feel like doing anything else. I just wanted to take photos of someone. I ate an entire bowl of sugary popcorn and then crawled into bed with Miggy (who's nocturnal at the moment — hence why he was sleeping during the day) cried a little bit and then I took a 2 hour nap. 

Admittedly, it was pretty lush to lie in bed in my cloths. Really comfy. It always feels nice to get back into bed after showering and being dressed. The rest of my day perked up a little. I took a beautiful walk through the forest which is getting super green this time of year. So refreshing! I made progress on my latest business book...

Selling the Invisible by Harry Beckwith.

I spent about 6 hours stressing over my website design. I've been worried that my website design isn't original enough. I'm afraid it's too heavily influenced by other photographers' designs. This exhausted me — hence no energy left for writing my business or marketing plan (both things at the top of my to-do list currently) and no energy left for blogging.

At the moment I'm sitting in my friend Jenni's living room. It's such a treat to socialise. It's hard being in a town where everyone has left. I can't wait to be in Seattle where people live and stay put so friendships can actually be enjoyed regularly in person. Jenni's boyfriend, Arturo, is visiting from Mexico (we love Arturo!) so we're had some quesadillas tonight. While the boys watched football, we girls got super excited about Jenni's sparkly sequin dress (for the grad-ball). I still don't know what I'm going to where. Hmm....

Super bonus of visiting Jenni's house tonight....another dinner guest was looking for a photographer to shoot her engagement session. She booked me for a St. Andrews themed session next month! Second bonus, two other dinner guests (also friends of mine) loved the idea of modelling for me and we've scheduled a shoot together for tomorrow morning! Horray. And I know they won't cancel on me because of 'sickness' partly because I trust them, partly because they were so excited and partly because they listened to me moaning about the other models' flakiness. 

We also discovered the Prank Wars from College Humour. Really gripping stuff.
Right. There's my outpouring from my heart for today.